The phone~!`~!
Today recieve two calls from two Thomas....
Thomas No.1
Din't expect you to call me during your lunch... actually don't expect you to call me anymore... probably you called becoz I never return your sms in the morning when you say morning to me... I don't want to return at all, coz I dont feel like to be a hp anymore... since I was not given a choice for your depart, at least I can choose not to be a hp.
Yestderday nite, I have a hard time getting myself to sleep, think heaty or what, msg you and told you a whole load of crap again, repeating myself. Thinking back... I feel so stupid for showing vulnerability infront of u again... I have told myself to quit doing this...
Today you msg me back saying: "I neber treat you like a hp". You dont feel this way but I do feel like I'm a hp. Maybe you don't notice, you been talking to me only thru' the hp. Msg me only when you feel like... juz to beep me "good morning" and "good nite". I don't need you to remind me when is day, when is nite. I know it myself, neither do I need a beeper to tell me that. When I msg you, only when u feel like msging me back - ya I know you are busy working, I'm not. Well, I have reach a stage - where you msg me, I dont feel like msging you back.
I read LW's blog, its true, love don't occupy a person's whole life... why let them rule me days and nights. Is you who create this messy to ruin the relationship, you come and fix it yourselves. If you don't, neither would I want to bother anymore. It's mine is mine. If its not, no matter what I do it still isn't mine. Just treat it, we are fated to meet each other, not fated to be together...
Thomas No.2
My little GOD bro. Meet him when I was in secondary school that will be like 10 years ago. He was my junior in my flute session, super naughty. He joined the band coz he want to learn the "guan huai fang shi" that I used to play. But in the end, he also learn nothing. Ke ke. Was surprise when he called me, never hear from him like donkey years. He grew up to be the same old blackie but much handsome and well build. Called to tell me about his relationship problem. No idea why also, of all the friends he has, he sure has people to talk to, but yet he called to "su ku".
Well, when you are an outsider you can see what's wrong with people's relationship, will feel they are childish. But when, you are inside a relationship, you hardly see the childishness in you. Ironic!~!~ Given the amount of love conselling and my past experience, I should know how to manage my own relationship well!~!~ Yet it is a failure!~!~ Feel I'm such a loser~!~
Okay back to him again! He told me he feel so insecure with his current new gf lah, say he want to break off lah, blar blar. I told him to look at the bright side, if they come out strong this time, their relationship will be much stronger. (I also see the tragic that befall our relationship as a test. If after this we still manage to get back, prehaps we are much stronger in our relationship. And more assure what we want in life. Let say, if it happen... which I dont think it will) He should also reflect on his temper, etc. Hope they are well, and me wish them well too.
Thomas No.1
Din't expect you to call me during your lunch... actually don't expect you to call me anymore... probably you called becoz I never return your sms in the morning when you say morning to me... I don't want to return at all, coz I dont feel like to be a hp anymore... since I was not given a choice for your depart, at least I can choose not to be a hp.
Yestderday nite, I have a hard time getting myself to sleep, think heaty or what, msg you and told you a whole load of crap again, repeating myself. Thinking back... I feel so stupid for showing vulnerability infront of u again... I have told myself to quit doing this...
Today you msg me back saying: "I neber treat you like a hp". You dont feel this way but I do feel like I'm a hp. Maybe you don't notice, you been talking to me only thru' the hp. Msg me only when you feel like... juz to beep me "good morning" and "good nite". I don't need you to remind me when is day, when is nite. I know it myself, neither do I need a beeper to tell me that. When I msg you, only when u feel like msging me back - ya I know you are busy working, I'm not. Well, I have reach a stage - where you msg me, I dont feel like msging you back.
I read LW's blog, its true, love don't occupy a person's whole life... why let them rule me days and nights. Is you who create this messy to ruin the relationship, you come and fix it yourselves. If you don't, neither would I want to bother anymore. It's mine is mine. If its not, no matter what I do it still isn't mine. Just treat it, we are fated to meet each other, not fated to be together...
Thomas No.2
My little GOD bro. Meet him when I was in secondary school that will be like 10 years ago. He was my junior in my flute session, super naughty. He joined the band coz he want to learn the "guan huai fang shi" that I used to play. But in the end, he also learn nothing. Ke ke. Was surprise when he called me, never hear from him like donkey years. He grew up to be the same old blackie but much handsome and well build. Called to tell me about his relationship problem. No idea why also, of all the friends he has, he sure has people to talk to, but yet he called to "su ku".
Well, when you are an outsider you can see what's wrong with people's relationship, will feel they are childish. But when, you are inside a relationship, you hardly see the childishness in you. Ironic!~!~ Given the amount of love conselling and my past experience, I should know how to manage my own relationship well!~!~ Yet it is a failure!~!~ Feel I'm such a loser~!~
Okay back to him again! He told me he feel so insecure with his current new gf lah, say he want to break off lah, blar blar. I told him to look at the bright side, if they come out strong this time, their relationship will be much stronger. (I also see the tragic that befall our relationship as a test. If after this we still manage to get back, prehaps we are much stronger in our relationship. And more assure what we want in life. Let say, if it happen... which I dont think it will) He should also reflect on his temper, etc. Hope they are well, and me wish them well too.
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